Things changeee so damn fast.
It's just teenagehood. I thought it was all good. And then POW. Lost two things in one night. Boyfriend and a close friend. Being honest, Keeva wasn't exactly what I'd describe as an amazing friend. She was there for me... but when she was, she told everyone what I had told her. And she bitched about her best friend everyday... That's just not right. I snapped last night... the year's worth of spite kinda flooded out on msn at her after the break up... it really didn't help that she found me being dumped frickin' hilarious. Or just the way it happened. CITT ruined my damn relationship. Me and Missa were playing around, asking could we tap all these random people and it got to Louis. I was like 'Can I tap that?'.. He asked if me and Missa were doing it to annoy him but we weren't and I was like 'I'm damn serious. I want your cock.' It's a goddamn joke, right? Well. Louis told Dave. Dave dumped me. I thought he was fucking kidding but.. he wasn't. :( And then I was shocked. And I cried for 7 hours non stop. No sleep. Lay crying with out checking the time, begging to stay home, but parentals refused and I rushed like fuck to school. I was scared when I went to school.. because I thought the others would hate me. But Ash doesn't. So it's all good. I love having best friends who I can fucking trust for once.. like Ash and Missa and shit. It's this sense of security like you're tied with elastic bands so if you fall, you'll spring right back up. Infallible rubber bands.... that'll never snap.
This was one of those frustrating short blogs. I was going to write more. But I'm in tears. Fail. Enjoy the pretty pics in this. I love pictures. Joining school photography club on Monday at lunch. In the BIG computer room.
LUCY XOXO
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